Intimacy is increasingly shown by psychological studies to be a very important part of modern life. Not letting yourself connect to others leads to severe if hidden loneliness, depression, anxiety, health issues, and even, according to recent studies, a shortened life span.
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7 Signs You Suffer Fear of Intimacy
Not sure if your problem is or isn’t anything to do with fear of intimacy? Take a look at these surprising signs.
1. You never sit still.
Always busy, your life full to the maximum? If you do have down time, do you immediately think of what you can do to fill it? Or are you known as a workaholic?
Behind a fear of intimacy is a fear of facing up to yourself and what you perceive (erroneously) as your weaknesses. We avoid being close to others because they would then see these apparent ‘flaws’, which can be feelings of sadness, anger, shame and grief.
Being constantly busy all the time means you can avoid such feelings so effectively, you can deny that you have them at all. And you have the perfect excuse to to avoid anyone wanting to get too close… you are busy! Your days remain full of tasks, and people remain kept at bay.
The truth about human nature is that we don’t bond over strength, but over weaknesses. Sure, we can bump chests and high five over group wins, but we form long lasting bonds when we see each other vulnerable, and have a chance to share empathy.
So always being forcefully upbeat is often a tactic to hide parts of ourselves and avoid deep connection.
Are you always listening to others talk about their wants and needs? If they try to ask about you, do you change the conversation back so that they are the subject again?
This habit of deflecting any focus away from yourself might see you come across as a ‘real friend‘.
But deep down, you are left feeling terribly lonely .Your constant focus on other people’s problems is being used as a shield for you to hide behind.
4. You always appear perfectly put together.
Do you always seem perfect and flawless?
The more perfect you appear externally, the less others can see that you are human and weak just like they are, and the less they will dare get close.
Your perfectionism acts as a way to intimidate others, and it keeps you too busy for relationships, anyway.
5. You are sure you know exactly what you want in a partner, you just haven’t found him/her yet.
Do you keep a ‘list’ of exactly what you want in a partner?
Another form of perfection, the ‘ideal mate list’ is usually something that nobody can live up to, and is a convenient way to brush off connecting with others by claiming, “I am sure of what I want and you just aren’t it.”
Of course, as an intimacy phobic person, even if you did stumble across your ideal partner, you wouldn’t choose them. Intimacy phobes are after one thing, and that is to avoid being hurt.
So you will pick someone who is emotionally unavailable (already taken, not looking for love, still hung up on someone else). Or you’ll find someone codependent – wanting to find their happiness through another, and willing to manipulate to get it.
6. You are many different things to many different people.
Do you secretly have no idea how to be your real self? Are you so used to hiding the parts of yourself that you don’t like that you mould yourself to be what you think others want?
This could be called ‘Marilyn Monroe syndrome’. Everyone who claimed they knew her well had a different take on who the ‘real’ Marilyn was. The girl next door, the siren, the secretly intelligent woman. The real truth was that she was lonely, and felt that nobody knew her.
If someone falls for an image of you they want to see (but which you willingly provide), how can you be hurt if they decide they don’t like the image? You can just laugh at them and claim, “Well you didn’t really know me, anyway”.
7. You have very strong opinions.
Strong opinions can be like a way of pushing others back. If you offer enough of them, or become known for them, others are scared off, or tiptoe around you. You thus avoid any real intimacy.
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Andrea Blundell is a well-established mental health writer and lead writer of this blog. Her favourite subjects to write about are relationships, trauma, and ADHD. Find her on Linkedin and Twitter.