Always Left Feeling Not Good Enough? The Real Reasons Why

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Hi Tia first of all, that is a lot for any person to go through. So give yourself some credit for being here to share this. Second of all, it is possible that you can move through the effects of all this and see real change and peace. Regarding the drinking, the mind is a funny thing. Sometimes we can hold back memories and emotions for a very long time then some small thing will trigger everything. Are you thinking of counselling? A good counsellor would create a safe space for you to unpack all the unresolved emotions it sounds like you’ve never had time to process. And they are unbaised, they don’t rely on you to be a certain way, or judge you.

What does that mean when you say that, “I don’t believe in therapy?” What part don’t you believe in?

Hi there, thanks for sharing. Are you sure it al doesn’t effect you? As we see point 1 and 2 even just in this comment. If we all knew exactly what had traumatised or upset us or led us to have low self esteem and negative beliefs about ourselves, then nobody would ever have depression or anxiety. The mind represses and hides things to help us cope – until we aren’t. Discovering these things is not an overnight process or something someone else can do for you. It’s a journey. One you have to commit to. We’d suggest you consider counselling if you really want to get to the bottom of it. Good luck.

Hi Conrad, probably you are typing because no matter how hard it gets a tiny part of you still has hope and doesn’t believe that death is the answer. We’d say we strongly agree with that tiny part. We are sorry to hear you were bunged on drugs as a child. It’s a very American way of doing things. Note that therapy and drugs are not the same thing. And just putting a child on drugs without proper support merely masks symptoms over helps the child. By the way, there are large scale research studies that show that therapy often does work. But it’s definitely not a magic wand. What we see in your comment, Conrad, by the way, is a lot of extreme thinking. When we are depressed or feeling lost our mind can become addicted to cognitive distortions. Thoughts that aren’t actually reality but we tell ourselves are. What type of therapy did you try, we are curious? What would be useful would be to start by working on those wild thoughts telling you you are not loveable or should just die or that nothing works. They are, by the way, just thoughts, not who you are. Who you are is bigger and better than any mere thought.

Hi there Linda. There is a lot going on in this comment. Quite honestly there feels a struggle here to present vs what you feel. For example, you say your daughter continues to be ‘sweet, gentle, thoughtful’. Then go on to label her as anything but. And there seems a high anxiety to find who to blame, and to make it very clear it is not about parenting. In our experience making things about fault and blame within family units just lead to disconnection. Families are working units.Everyone affects the other, and the way one person sees things is not the way the other does. The way one person experiences and feels things is not the way the other does. And note we have never come across perfect parenting. Ever. Parents make mistakes. Sometimes big ones. There is no manual. Parents hurt kids despite best intentions, and kids upset parents despite best intentions. Families are messy. But the best parenting involves being honest about that, or risk alienating your children. We wonder if with so many other children already with their own set of problems your daughter felt pressured to live up to your desire she be ‘sweet, gentle’, etc. Which no child ever is all time unless they are trying to please a parent. If so, they spend a childhood trying to meet a parent’s expectations that they be a ‘good child’ then explode out all their repressed sadness and anger later on as they try to figure out who they actually are. Perhaps as a teen she needed to try being less than perfect. Seems pretty human to us. As does gossiping, a bit of hanging out with a wild crowd. I mean aren’t we essentially gossiping about her right now? She is also an adult now, 26. Which means it’s now entirely up to her how to be. The best a parent can do is try to love an adult child to the best of their ability, and set boundaries around the things you don’t or can’t accept in your own house and interactions. Other than that, she’s beyond your control.Finally we sense a lot of anger here, actually. And we wonder if it would not actually be more powerful and useful for you to, instead of trying to figure your daughter out, which is up to her now, to spend time with a counsellor looking at all your own feelings over raising children that didn’t meet your expectations and what this need to appear so perfect is actually about. Good luck.

Hi Jason, does anger have to be placed somewhere? Is it okay to just have anger that needs to be processed in a healthy way? We are human and we all make mistakes and the fact that you realise that is great. But the emotions are still there, beyond our adult reasoning. That’s one of the reasons therapy exists, to help us process these emotions we don’t know what to do with.

Hi Jackie, that’s an awful lot for one person to deal with. We are sure, however, you are more than all this. More than just what you have experienced, and with inner resources despite it all. We hope that you have sought some support on all this as it’s a lot to navigate alone.

Hi Kyle, what you are describing is a classic case of codependency, and it’s very common to use a codependent approach to all our relationships if we grew up taking care of a parent, always having to be responsible and ‘good’ as our parent isn’t well. Codependency means we have learned to base our identity and sense of self and worth around pleasing others. We don’t realise that we have worth just for being who we are, ‘warts and all’. The problem is that we if we are always trying to be ‘good’ and ‘acceptable’ we have to repress a lot of things about ourselves. We can lose sight of who we really are, and then feel lost, and yes, lonely. We are lonely because we are always actually acting, and never being our real selves. The truth is that we are acceptable and worthy even if we aren’t ‘kind, caring, supportive’ all the time. We are worthy and acceptable even if we are sad, upset, angry. Real relationships are based on being all of ourselves and accepting others for being all of their selves. We recommend you use the search bar to find our pieces on codependency and on authentic relationships. And also to seek support if you can. Is there a counsellor at school you would comfortable talking to? Note there are also great free help lines here in the UK with really nice trained volunteers happy to take your call with many just for people your age and if you don’t want to call you can text or email http://bit.ly/mentalhelplines. Best, HT

Hi there Evin, we don’t actually believe any child is ‘naturally angry and hateful’, unless you are one in about a million children born with psychopathy, which would mean you were never here feeling guilty writing this comment. Children are angry because they experience things that overwhelm them or don’t receive the love and acceptance they need to thrive. We can imagine, for example, it was hard to get much attention with that many siblings. Also, we all do and say terrible things. It doesn’t make us a terrible person. It makes us a person who has said terrible things. So we’d say we are sure you are not at all a terrible person, just a person going through a lot who feels lonely and unloved. but who has all the potential that anyone else does and can do great things with her life. Finally, you are sixteen. It’s tough being a teen. Your brain is still growing, your body is flooded with hormones, you are still figuring out who you are. It’s actually normal to be self judgemental as a teen, to feel lost and unhappy. That said, your level of self-esteem seems extremely low and there is clearly an issue with your father. So it would be great if you had someone to talk to. Is there a counsellor at your school you would feel comfortable talking to? Also note that if you are in USA, Canada, UK, etcetera, they have free help lines for teens. Google for one in your country. Best, HT

Hi Leann, we understand your desire to support someone you love. But we see a lot of red flags here. Being the only person someone turns to is a lot for anyone to navigate. We notice you don’t talk about yourself at all. How much of your life is consumed by ‘fixing’ his life? And dealing with his sorrows? If your life is so consumed by him you don’t even have friends we’d recommend you do some research on codependency and healthy vs unhealthy relationships. As for your boyfriend, we can’t change another person or ‘love them better’. Yes, we can support the people we love. But the only person who can change him is him. And the best way to support someone is also to take care of ourselves, to lead by example. Read about codependency here http://bit.ly/codependentall Best, HT

Meg, what you are describing is actually a classic side effect of abuse. We become entrenched in certain ways of seeing the world and unconsciously create patterns by the decisions we make, unable to see that we are creating them because trauma has made our brain see a certain way. These patterns involve people rejecting us or making us feel unworthy. We unconsciously choose the very people who might do that even. There are some things here, such as using the word ‘eliminate’ and feeling totally rejected and abandoned, plus having suicidal thoughts and extreme low self esteem, which could be red flags for emotive personality disorder, common in women particularly who went through childhood abuse. (It’s also called borderline personality disorder, but there is actually nothing ‘borderline’ to it). So what we’d say is… you have to gather up all your courage and seek support. These sorts of heavily entrenched patterns are really really hard if not impossible to break alone. We suggest you read our article on therapies that help trauma survivors as not all therapies are helpful so it’s important you choose a good one and find a therapist you think you can grow to trust. http://bit.ly/therapyfortrauma Finally, don’t give up on yourself. People who have gone through trauma have many gifts to share with the world. They are often sensitive, caring, creative, and loving. And the world needs a lot more of that, wouldn’t you agree? Best, HT

Hi Morgan. This isn’t love. This is abuse and trauma bonding. If we grow up without unconditional love or safety, we often think that trauma is love. Read our article on trauma bonds here. https://www.harleytherapy.co.uk/counselling/what-is-trauma-bonding.htm They are very hard to break, as you can see you are so addicted to this man you have even lost your daughter. You have to reach out for help. Look for a woman’s charity near you that helps women in abusive situations, and gather up your courage to contact them.

Hi there. So you are very angry. Enraged, really. Whether you realise it or not, this is the vibe you are sending loud and clear even just in an internet comment. And we get it. Life can be really hard. You aren’t alone in that. We work with thousands of client who have lived through horrific things. In fact most people at some point face very difficult experiences. But if all you are doing is emanating fury then you are not going to attract supportive kind people. You are going to attract people who want to fight with you. You are sending out the message whether you realise it or not that you WANT a fight. Then there are core beliefs. The things that we deep down believe about ourselves, hidden in our unconscious. And these beliefs, like it or not, control our decisions. So we can say we don’t want to be treated badly, but deep down, if our core belief is, ‘I am worthless’, we will unconsciously make choices to ‘prove’ this true, including choosing to be around people we unconsciously know will put us down. So you are saying due to one bad experience you will never ever seek help again. Have you ever eaten something bad and then had stomach upset? Did you then decide to never ever eat again? Have one bad date then decide to never ever date again? Just to point out that basing your entire future on one bad experience isn’t helpful. There are bad therapists. Therapists are people, not robots, they can be flawed. There are also millions of good therapists. Given your history, you need support. Either you gather up your courage and seek it, knowing that finding a therapist might be like dating and you need to be patient until you find one you click with. You have very heavy trust issues so you have to expect not to like a therapist at first. To stick it out anyway. To find someone you feel down the line you might one day trust, then stick it out. Or start by finding a support group or start committing to a serious path of recovery and reading books and seeking courses etc. Or, other option, you can spend the rest of your life enraged and feeling beyond help and like it’s everyone else’s fault. But you are an adult now. You are a powerful person. You have the power to make different choices every single day. You just need the help to have the courage to leave your comfort zone of fury and self pity and make those different choices. But you have to decide that, nobody else can make that decision for you. We think you deserve that, don’t you? Best, HT.

Hi AA, sounds like you need someone to talk to. Don’t hesitate to call a free helpline, that’s what they are there for and there are kind people on the other end. Here’s our list of ones where we are in the UK http://bit.ly/mentalhelplines if you aren’t in the UK, google for the ones where you live. Best, HT.

Hi Cody, what are these ‘alternatives’ you are turning to? Is any of them seeking support? Expecting any relationship to fix you is not only not healthy it’s a sure fire way to implode the relationship and leave yourself feeling far worse. The person who has to fix all this is you, there is no ‘saviour’ except for you. But the good news is that you absolutely have the ability to fix this. But of course doing it alone is hard, and if you knew HOW to fix it you would have already, right? We get that. Therapists don’t fix it for you, they just help you see the inner resources you didn’t know you had, help you put them to use, and then help you realise who you really are behind all this people pleasing, as well as release the repressed emotions and experiences that keep you stuck in cycles of unhelpful behaviour, such as pushing everyone away but then demanding too much/being clingy if you do get near love. (By the way the article talks about attachment. If you use our search bar to find our article on ‘anxious attachment’ we think you’ll understand yourself better). So you are the one who has to fix it, but a therapist can show you how, does that make sense? So look. Reach out for support. This stuff doesn’t just vanish. No relationship or person makes it vanish. It requires the courage to commit to sorting it out. If you read the article you’ll see it discusses a lot of what you’ve been through, and at the bottom it suggests types of therapy that can help. We wish you courage! Best, HT.

Not good enough for what? We have yet to meet someone who is not good enough to be here on this earth, who does not have inner resources, who does not have the potential to help others. We have met a lot of people in terrible emotional pain, or who have done things they are not proud of. But every day we have the right to make different choices. Best, HT.

Hi Alison, well worth booking some counselling sessions over, which would help. Best, HT.

Hi there Calvin, there is a lot going on here. Where to start. All things best worked through with a counsellor who can truly get to know you, but we’ll offer a few pointers. First, this idea you have to be ‘fixed’. That is in itself part of the problem. It’s a self perspective that is self perpetuating. I am flawed, I am broken… I will unconsciously continue to make decisions that prove this true… what if you WEREN’T broken? Just… human? Doing your best? Could you even consider what it might be like to extend that sort of self compassion to yourself? Self compassion has been found to raise self esteem http://bit.ly/selfcompassionHT. Second, the idea that you are all at fault for relationship problems. Not possible. Relationships are 50/50. Two people. A woman who dates a man with self esteem and trust issues will have her own issues to deal with, yes? Perhaps she is controlling, demanding, manipulative, who knows… we don’t know anything about her, but we are sure she is far from perfect, note how she has cut you out cold, for example. So you can’t do this to ‘fix’ a relationship. You can only fix you. Any ex partners have to face up to their own responsibility for what went wrong. If they are in victim mode and totally blaming you, well that is their issue right there. We are not saying you didn’t make mistakes. We ALL do. We are saying it’s not possible another person isn’t 50% of the situation. Finally, this is not about the last girlfriend. This is, as you can see, something that goes right through all relationships. It will be a pattern of thinking and relating you learned as a child. So seek help as, yes, you are tired of not being able to trust and want to like yourself and recognise that you are a worthwhile guy with tons to offer, and yes, to stop beating yourself up and constantly feeling worthless when you make mistakes like we all do. But sound like you have a lot to offer. Go to therapy to recognise where these patterns come from and find new ways of thinking and relating that mean you finally stop this endless pattern of choosing relationships where you can’t be fully yourself and to find the comfort, safety, and love we all deserve. But don’t go to therapy thinking it will win anyone back. Especially a woman who has clearly moved on. We wish you courage. We believe you would find therapy very useful, consider reading our article on therapies that help with relating http://bit.ly/findlovetherapy Best, HT.

Honestly Calvin we are just being straight up. We would never say something just to make someone feel better, that would be inauthentic. It’s impossible for any human to be perfect, although some do act it, in what is known as codependency, forming their personality around pleasing the other at the cost of being properly honest and authentic. Nobody is perfect. We are all human and flawed. And note sometimes seeing someone else as perfect and ourselves as a big bad problem is actually quite stressful for the other person as they then have to live up to that. Also note that this tendency comes from low self-esteem. It’s a way to beat ourselves up. To put others on pedestals and ourselves down below. To glaze over the reality of the other person’s flaws so we can endlessly blame ourselves. Relationships are a dance. If one person is making messy steps, it’s a guarantee the other is too, somehow. Do seek counselling, and see what comes up! Best, HT.

MA, thanks for sharing this story, it’s so powerful! We are sure it will inspire other readers. Core beliefs are incredible, they are burrowed in our unconscious and can really rule the show, but once we root them out it can be a real shift. If you were enough, what would you actually want to do? Would it even be medicine at all? The other thing that is interesting is that there seemed to be some sort of sabotage going on with getting into medicine school, as you dropped out and withdrew your application as you decided you wouldn’t make it, instead of taking the chance even if you weren’t perfect or the highest applicant you would have made it through… in other words, your unconscious mind was driving you to ‘prove’ you weren’t good enough. Also note how you even managed to convince yourself you weren’t enough to have depression, if that makes sense… by comparing your own childhood to others. Anyway it’s great to hear you are moving forward, therapy can be a longer journey than we imagined, but when the lightbulbs turn on it makes it all worth it. Best, HT.

Hi there D, so when we are grieving, our thoughts get very extreme and we can experience a lot of anger. So go easy on yourself. When we are young it can be easy to see our parents as our whole world. And to base our sense of self off our family. But as we grow up, then that is no longer healthy. We have to form our own sense of self. Who we are, and what value we have, has to come from ourselves, within, regardless of what anyone else, even our family, thinks. We don’t know your age, but we would guess you are a teen. this is the time in life we start to realise we have to soon be independent and can feel enraged at our parents for letting us down. To then lose a parent during this already difficult time of life is hard. So again, cut yourself some slack. It’s okay to have wild thoughts and emotions. But they are thoughts and emotions, not who you are. Who you are is up to you. And it’s something you’ll start to get more of a handle on as you get older and more independent. For now, take it one day at a time. Reach out to those you trust, friends. If you don’t have anyone to talk to, don’t overlook your school counsellor, that is what they are there for. Or dont’ be afraid to call a free helpline, there are friendly people happy to listen on the other end. best, HT.

Hi there Mureau. It’s easy to tell ourselves we had a ‘great childhood’. But sounds like you didn’t feel supported or that there wasn’t room for you to be yourself, just what your parents needed. We can hide behind an idea we had a great childhood as we are scared to make our parents ‘wrong’. But this isn’t necessary. Parenting is hard, and it’s possible they did their best. That is not the question. Nor is it about a ‘good’ or ‘bad’ childhood. A childhood is what it is. The question is whether you got what you needed to be a confident adult who knows how to relate in healthy ways. If you didn’t then you need to process all this pain and confusion and learn relating and confidence yourself. Would you consider reaching out for support in the form of counselling or psychotherapy? We think it could really help. Best, HT.

Hi there. Low self-esteem doesn’t just come out of nowhere. It tends to be something that comes from a series of experiences we have had, often in childhood, that create a set of beliefs that live in our unconscious mind and ‘direct the show’, so to speak. So while we can’t wave a magic wand and fix this for you, YOU can fix it. But it won’t be instant. It will take a commitment to yourself and some hard work, learning who you are and how you think and where all your beliefs come from. And the courage to reach out for some support in the form of counselling or therapy. Yes, self help books are great too, but given that this is, as you say, affecting your whole life, then support would be advised. But these things can improve. You might, if therapy sounds overwhelming, want to start with a round of CBT therapy. It’s only short term, it doesn’t dive into your past, it just works on helping you learn how to recognise, manage, and improve your thinking, which then goes on to affect your decisions. It’s helpful for low self-esteem and anxiety. Oh, and in the meantime, try our article, with practical tools for raising self confidence https://www.harleytherapy.co.uk/counselling/building-confidence.htm Best, HT.

Hi Sabrina, we can’t tell you the answer to your life, particularly just based on a comment, as we don’t know the whole story. All we can do is ask good questions. What has stopped you from just doing the degree? Is there really no enterprise in the entire place that you live in who doesn’t care or are you basing this on a few experiences and making an assumption as you are upset? What stops you from, say, just starting your own business? (These are just questions to widen perspective, as when we are insulted our perspective tends to narrow). There feels to be a lot of anger here, is that possible? What other things make you angry at the moment if you take a moment to really reflect? It feels like you are fixated on this situation and we would suspect in therapy it would be a bigger, more multi facted issue, but otherwise you might want to do a few coaching sessions with a careers coach who could help you find other perspectives and solutions. Best, HT.

Hi Macey, growing up can be hard. It can sometimes involve feeling like crap and sad and weird. Our hormones are all over the place, our brains are still growing. It’s okay and normal to have bad days and to want attention and be valued. But it’s not okay to forget that our life is ours, and ours alone. You see here’s the hard truth. This is not about the boys, at all. It’s about you and it’s about low self esteem. Nobody else on this planet can decide your self worth, only you can. And the more we feel we don’t have any, the more others will take the cue from us and decide we don’t. Without realising it we are sending out unconscious signals that we believe we are not pretty or worthy, and we are training those around us to think that, crazy, huh? But think about it. The truth is that it isn’t really about how we look, we all know someone who looks very different, or is far from what is currently considered attractive, who everyone likes. It’s like they have some sort of weird magic, right? They do. This is what it is. They believe they are interesting and worthy and are so busy being themselves they don’t ever even bother thinking what others think, they just get out there and live their best life, do what they love, engage in hobbies, be a good friend to those around them. Long story short, you need to look at where this low self esteem comes from. is there someone you can talk to? An adult you trust, a counsellor at school? It matters that you address this. Otherwise what happens when we are young girls is that the first idiot who comes along who shows up the least bit of attention gets ours, even if he is then mean and horrible. And that means we are left feeling worse, not better. So take the time to work on your sense of self and esteem, it really matters. Best, HT.

Hi there G. We don’t think you are oversensitive based on this comment (of course we can’t really say as a comment is very limiting and we don’t know you, so this is not a diagnosis). It actually sounds like you are experiencing healthy reactions to unhealthy situations. It’s normal to feel sad and devastated if we experience trauma. It then sounds like your lack of self worth has led to choosing highly unhealthy, destructive relationships that support any negative idea you have about yourself. Not listening to your feelings and worries, shaming you for a past that was outside of your control instead of supporting you for all the inner strength that had you come through it, pushing you to have sexual encounters you don’t want, shaming you for any talk of wanting help with your mental health… these are all serious red flags. We suggest you read our article on coercive control https://bit.ly/coercivecontrolht. In summary, it’s hardly surprising you feel alone given that this is what you have decided is ‘love’. There are millions of souls out there just like you who would understand you but you are the person who needs to understand and support you most of all as you are the one making these choices now, as an adult, that drive you again and again towards despair. You need to reform your ideas of yourself, and of what love is and isn’t. And you really need support. Any counsellor or therapist would understand all of this and create a safe, confidential space for you to slowly begin to build some self esteem. We have an article on how to find low cost or even free therapy here you can use as an inspiration in your search http://bit.ly/lowcosttherapy. In summary, we don’t think there is anything ‘wrong’ with you. We just think you unconsciously decided that you don’t deserve good things and are stuck in a cycle of choosing a life that hurts and punishes you. You have gotten so used to it you don’t even realise that you have options. You do. You just need help and support to see them. Best, HT.

Hi there Y, forget about loving yourself all the time. That’s a thing from the self help movement that has caused more trouble than good. Nobody loves themselves all the time. The human mind is too quick, too changing, and on top of that, most of us don’t really have a solid definition of what love even is or even have the faintest clue. We expect some blissed out wild feeling, which is just a creation of American movies. So try this instead. How about just accepting yourself just exactly as you are. Not liking or loving, but minute by minute accepting that this is who you are, right now. Then learn the fine art of self compassion. http://bit.ly/selfcompassionHT This means treating yourself like you treat your friends. Becoming your own friend. Would you judge a friend for having a bad day? Making a bad choice? Feeling low? So then why the heck judge yourself? if it helps write letters to yourself as if you are are your own friend, or talk to yourself like you’d talk to a friend. Next step – stop thinking you are your thoughts. Thoughts are just thoughts. They are static, like a bad radio station, sometimes. They are not who you are. So learn how to hear them then dismiss them. For this we highly recommend a mindfulness practise. It’s easy to learn, but for it to work you have to commit to it each day. but on a good note it’s shown by research to lower anxiety and improve focus and moods. Learn how for free here. http://bit.ly/mindfulnessallabout. As for your childhood, who knows whether it was good or bad, that’s irrelevant really. If you feel low, for whatever reason, your child mind processed some things as traumatic, whether your adult mind agrees or not. We’d highly advise counselling to deep dive on this and get some support to start to get to know yourself better and raise your esteem. If you are on a low budget we have an article on how to find free to low cost counselling here http://bit.ly/lowcosttherapy. Finally, you might want to look into CBT therapy. It’s short term and a great starter therapy, and it’s main focus is on helping you gain control over your thinking and turn thoughts from negative to balanced. Best, HT.

Hi there, sounds tough. Do you see the psychologist weekly? Have you shared this with them? What was their response? And what sort of therapy does this psychologist offer? Best, HT.

Hi Cary, if we had the instant, snap your fingers solution, well wouldn’t we be famous indeed! Low self esteem takes years to end up with, and a commitment to yourself and the path of self development to change. But it’s a worthwhile goal to make so be proud you are ready to step forward and make changes, the journey itself can end up teaching much more than just esteem. Before we go further, we would ask, ‘is that true, though? Did you really lose your girlfriend only over that?’ As in our experience, relationships are ALWAYS 50/50. I mean she was the one who chose to date you when you had issues, right? So then what does that say about her? She has her own darn issues. Blaming yourself is simply a way to make yourself feel worse. You aren’t perfect, but neither was she. You were both humans, and the mix didn’t work out. Try to not just use it as a tool of self torture. Seeing how we need to change to have healthier relationships is a great thing, torturing ourselves for having issues is not. Also note that unworthiness happens to the best of us at times. It’s human to suffer from low confidence. For example, does this unworthiness go right across the board? Do you feel confident at work, for example, but just under confident in love? If it’s mostly relationships that the under confidence comes out, then that is often related to our childhood and the lessons we learned or didn’t learn about relating from the adults around us. Did you read the article fully? Notice what resonated? Getting a handle on the ‘why’ is a good place to start as you need to know the reason you have a problem before you solve it. We have many articles with great tips on here, use the search bar to search for ‘esteem’ and ‘confidence’. As for how to ‘reprogram’ your brain, well, actually, one of the therapies the article mentions, CBT, is a short term therapy which focuses on helping you essentially ‘reprogram’ your thoughts, and it would definitely be a helpful one for you by the sounds of it. Note it requires commitment, effort, and homework. But we think the results are worth it. Best, HT.

It sounds very difficult. But what is happening here is you are trapped in a difficult situation that has given you what are called ‘cognitive distortions’. This is when we believe a reality is ‘true’ when really we are just believing a set of distorted ideas, are making big assumptions, and practicing extreme, black and white thinking. We become so addicted to our negative thinking we can’t see anything but bad. Even if something good fell on our head we wouldn’t see it. Life is not black and white, there are always many shades of grey, but we can’t see that. So look. It’s very hard to feel good about ourselves if someone is always criticising us. Nobody can thrive in this environment. This does not mean that the person criticising us is correct. The reason why you would attract only people who find faults in you as that is what you are doing to yourself. Other people take their cues from us. They treat us how we are showing them we want to be treated. You constantly put yourself down this entire comment is putting yourself down, so this will attract people who do the same. In summary, you need to shift perspective and start to respect yourself. But we do get that is VERY hard to do living with your parents. In an ideal world you need to get out of this household and away from your father so you have a chance to grow up, figure out who you are, develop an identity. You will immediately protest this is not possible as your mind, again, is addicted to only seeing black and white, doom and gloom. Tell yourself that your mind is wrong, and this time, don’t agree with it. Recognise that moving out of their parents home is something millions of people do each year all around the world, they find a way. This might require being creative, and it might mean lowering expectations. Taking a menial job you don’t like for awhile, for example. We don’t know where you live, we do know that poverty can make life really hard, and sometimes there is very little opportunity. But if you have the time in life to have girlfriends, friends, to research things on a computer, we are guessing you are not living in extreme poverty. So then start to be open to possibilities and start to make getting out of that environment non negotiable. Something you have to do no matter what. Then start reading more about things like balanced thinking, assumptions, self compassion, we have articles on all of this, use the search bar to find them. You don’t have to learn to perfectly like yourself in a day or week or even year. You just have to commit to trying, bit by bit. In summary, we don’t think you are at all hopeless, far from it. We think you are in a bad situation and you are depressed, and you never learned how to like or respect yourself. Once you get out of that environment and learn to relate in positive ways and to have self compassion, we are convinced things can change. Another useful thing here proven to help moods and self-esteem is volunteering, helping those less fortunate than ourselves. It can really help shift our perspective and sometimes the contacts we meet through volunteering can be friends, or can help us with job leads. Stay open. Best, HT.

Hi Hafsa,23 is very young to be worrying about not being married! In some cultures that would be seen as too young to marry, so we are assuming you are not in a Western country but one where there is extreme pressure to please family and marry very young. Always pleasing others can be something we do to tell ourselves we have value if we don’t feel we do, when really the person we need to remember to please and take care of is ourselves (use the search bar to find our article on pleasing others we think you’ll find it very useful). It sounds like your problem with low self-esteem is very deep rooted and goes right back to childhood. Weight issues are a very common side effect of low self-esteem, we turn to food for comfort, or use a larger body size to protect ourselves if deep down we feel the world is a dangerous place. And then our brain gets hooked on food (if you feel you can’t control your eating an amazing practical book far better than beating ourselves up or trying pointless and harmless diets is “Eating Less” by Gillian Riley, using brain science around addiction to create a healthy approach to eating). If you aren’t able to access any form of counselling, which we think would be the ideal, then we’d say there are a lot of great self help books and blogs out there nowadays, and you can still make progress by educating yourself as much as possible on self-esteem and self-compassion, etc. We have many articles this site about confidence and esteem with actionable steps, as well as articles on tools that help like mindfulness and journalling. We’d also suggest you read our article on self-compassion. Sometimes insides our heads we talk to ourselves in a way we’d never speak to a friend, and the more we can change that voice to be at least as nice as we’d talk to a friend the better. In summary, you are very, very young. We know it can feel like you have to achieve everything as fast as possible, or that it makes sense to compare yourself to others like siblings, but try to cut yourself some slack. We all have our own timelines, and some of us come into our own far later, but in a way that ends up being perfect for who we are. You are a software engineer, an intelligent woman who is paying her way, be proud of what you have accomplished and try to enjoy all that you are doing, then trust that other good things are ahead. Also, psychological research points out that we always compare up, which 100% makes us feel bad, and sometimes we need to remember to compare down, and notice all the other people we are doing much better than! Best, HT.

Hi there Confused. It must be exhausting to be constantly running through this all in your head again and again. You see here’s the thing. If emotional pain is our safety zone, if we don’t know how to be happy or feel good, and our brain is stuck in ‘trauma mode’, we can become addicted to pain. We literally can’t let ourselves see if things go right or what might be going okay for us. Our mind is stuck in the hell perspective. What type of therapy are you doing? How long has it been? Have you gone through all this with your therapist? You are clearly living from a state of trauma and would benefit from a therapy that helps you stabilise and learn to question and change your thoughts, over a therapy just going over and over all the horrible things you’ve lived through which can leave you constantly feeling traumatised. Therapies like CBT, EMDR, BWRT are good for stabilising us if we are in a state of trauma…..we explain more here http://bit.ly/therapyfortrauma. Otherwise, what matters most is that you feel you can eventually develop a bond of trust with your therapist. As even if your therapist offers another kind of therapy entirely, if you feel it’s a trusting and supportive environment, that can go a long way. As for your question how to think you are worth something, you have gotten the idea of self worth wrong. It is NOTHING to do with what you have lived through, what others think, what you did or didn’t do, what circumstances you are in. The ONLY thing self worth is is a decision. You decide you are worthy. Believe it or not, that’s it. You decide you are worthy and start treating yourself like a friend instead of an enemy and start making decisions based on the idea you have worth and you go from there. Of course that means you have to learn to stop caring what others think and stop telling yourself you don’t deserve to feel worthy because of your past, which is simply untrue. And the funny thing is, the more we decide we are worthy and act like it, the more others start to treat us like we are. In any case, these are things to discuss and work through in the therapy room. Not things to solve overnight based on a comment by someone you don’t know. Therapy is not a miracle. It’s a long term commitment, at times it is tough and boring. But it does help if you stick it out. Best, HT.