“It’s All My Fault” – When You Can’t Do Anything Right
Do you find yourself saying ‘it’s all my fault’ whenever something goes wrong?
Do you live with an endless sense of guilt and shame?
And blame yourself for every relationship conflict?
The problem with deciding “it’s all my fault”
Taking responsibility when we have chosen an action that upsets others can be a sign of maturity, and shows respect for those around us.
But we all make mistakes, not just you. And conflict is a group effort.
So it’s simply not possible or realistic that everything is all your fault, all the time.
Which means often, self-blame isn’t about taking responsibility at all. It’s instead an unconscious way to avoid facing the reality of the situations you find yourself in.
By taking the blame, you neatly sidestep any further conversation or analysis of what has happened.
And always saying it’s your fault is also a form of self-abuse. You push yourself into so much guilt and shame you are paralysed, unable to grow and change.
The price of always taking the blame
It can help to see constant self-blame as a sort of reverse psychological projection.
Usually, with projection, we put a quality we don’t like onto another person to avoid seeing it in ourself. Suddenly they are the dishonest one, the rude one.
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In this case, you project your good traits onto the other. They are kind and flawless, and you are the monster.
But this claiming of all the blame blocks the other person from sharing their own truth about the situation. They can’t face their own responsibility and grow and learn from what has happened. The result can often be that the other person becomes increasingly frustrated, feels trapped, and pulls away.
Your relationships remain stuck in an often dramatic pattern of claiming fault/begging for forgiveness, instead of working through challenges together and creating real connection.
The result? You feel lonely, unloved, and even more of a terrible, shameful person who must therefore always be at fault. And the cycle continues.
The hidden benefits of always using self-blame
If self-blame leaves us feeling lonely and stuck, then why would we continue to use it?
Personal coaching would suggest that if we want to stop a habit, we must first accept the benefits it gives us. What would be the benefits of always taking the blame?
1.You get to feel sorry for yourself.
When you blame yourself, you actually victimise yourself. It’s a backwards way to go into ‘poor me’ mode.
2. You gain attention.
And when we feel sorry for ourselves, it forces the other to feel sorry for us, too. It might not be the best way to get attention, but it does the trick.
3. You maintain control.
This might be hard to accept, but the truth about always claiming responsibility is that it is manipulative. You constantly block the other person from deciding how things will go, and you use sympathy to make sure they don’t pull away and leave you.
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4. It gives you power.
So effectively, always claiming ‘it’s all my fault’ ends up a way to have power over another. It might be hard to believe when you have such low self-esteem that you’d want power over another. But low self-esteem can mean we want the power to stop other people hurting or abandoning us.
5. You can avoid changing.
If we always take the blame, then we don’t have to experience new emotions or new conversations.
6. You don’t have to be vulnerable.
Accepting someone else has perhaps wronged you (even if not meaning to) can mean you must allow yourself to feel hurt and vulnerable. Using self-blame means you can resort to shame instead of vulnerability.
Why am I the sort of person who always feels ‘its’ all my fault’?
Nobody is born thinking that everything is all their fault. It’s something we somehow learn from the experiences we have, or decide to believe because of the way those experiences make us feel.
Often a habit of self-blaming comes from a childhood trauma. If we are abused, neglected, abandoned, or lose someone we loved, our childlike brain can find no understanding of what has happened other than to think, ‘it is something I did somehow, it’s all my fault’. And our brain takes this assumption as fact (called having a ‘core belief’ in psychology). It then applies it to any other difficult thing that comes along, until it is a pattern we carry into adulthood.
Self-blame can also come from certain types of parenting that don’t allow us to be ourselves. If you were, for example, shown love when you were ‘good’ or ‘quiet’ but shunned, criticised, or punished if you dared to be angry or sad or show a different opinion, then you would take on the idea that you have a ‘bad’ side. If you show that side, well, then…anything that goes wrong is ‘all your fault’.
Why is it so hard to stop feeling it’s all my fault?
Blaming ourselves can be quite addictive. Addictions tend to grow when we are using something to avoid emotional pain.
And even though on the surface blaming yourself seems to be about making yourself feel many things (worthless, bad, no good, furious at yourself) what we often are doing is avoiding feeling the one emotion that our childhood trauma would have caused – sadness.
How can I break this pattern of always feeling it’s all my fault?
If you find you can’t stop feeling everything is all your fault, it might be time to seek support. Counsellors and psychotherapists are trained at helping you find the root of your shame and self-blame. They create a safe space to process old experiences and repressed emotions. And they help you learn and practise ways of relating that don’t involve the default setting of deciding it’s all your fault.
Therapies you might want to try to end cycles of self-blame include:
- compassion-focused therapy
- cognitive analytic therapy (CAT)
- cognitive behavioural therapy (CBT)
- mentalisation-based therapy (MBT)
- mindfulness-based cognitive therapy
- schema therapy
- transactional analysis.
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Still have a question about why you always claim ‘It’s all my fault?” Comment below (note the comment box is public and monitored, and is not a therapy service or hotline).
I was wondering if you can recommend any books to read to address this feeling of “Its all my fault” specifically to a parenting style
Hi Melinda, it’s a good question. Unfortunately we can’t think of a book that addresses just this. But you might find some research on attachment theory and anxious attachment interesting, as well as codependent parenting.
In my dealing with this in myself, I found that using the Al-Anon model, and replacing “Alcohol” with “chaos” (guilt, blame, & other terms work too), helped me recover some. I learned that it’s statistically impossible for everything to always be my fault as my parents, partners, & sometimes other community members would make me feel; then weeding out some of the not so great traits with their step 4 guide workbook helped me find the roots of why I thought & felt like this. I’m far from cured, but I’m far less codependent for it, & I’d like to think that I’m a better (not perfect & don’t want to be perfect) parent for it. Has Harley Therapy thought about putting together a book on this matter, or even your own 12 step self help guide?
Hi Aingel, we are really glad that 12-steps worked for you, thanks for sharing. It certainly helps a lot of people. It is not the approach we take, so we won’t be doing a guide, but we do feel that what matters is that people find what works for them.
Sounds like bullcrap to me it’s my fault because I can’t do anything right and I fuckeverythung up not because of something in my childhood
And sounds like a deeply help limiting belief to us. Which is formed…. in childhood ;).
How would one identify whether the blame that we assign to ourselves is warranted or not. Whether we actually are to blame in a particular situation or whether we are just indulging in self-blame as a coping mechanism?
From personal experience, as a child I avoided taking responsibility for just about anything but once I got older, I understood that I needed to take responsibility for my actions and the lack of them as well (Vestigial catholic guilt there)
Wouldn’t taking responsibility actually mean that one is more mature and trying to make things right at that point of time rather than trying to exert control?
When we are blaming ourselves as a coping mechanism it’s not that we don’t know it’s illogic, it’s that we can’t stop feeling guilty for it. We know that it’s not entirely our fault that our marriage fell apart, our partner wasn’t perfect, but then our thoughts keep returning to all we did wrong. Coping mechanisms don’t mean we are stupid, just that we are trapped in ways of dealing with stress. Taking responsibility for something we know we did wrong is indeed required to be a responsible mature adult. Best, HT
How do you move past the childhood trauma? Something happened when I was 10 and my sister has blamed me for it and still does to this day, I’m 38. So I’ve always believed it was my fault and carried the shame & guilt around with me. I’ve became a people pleaser and internalise everything. I was in a car accident a few years ago that wasn’t my fault but I’m still reliving it and blaming myself for what happened. I just seem to have to many issues I don’t know where to start to work through any of them. I use to apologise just for breathing. My mental health is not good.
I’ve tried to get help, but I always feel like I just wallpaper over the cracks, how I feel is normal to me. No interests, no life, no relationship intimate or platonic. The only connections I’ve had was with my mother & grandfather and he’s just past away and I don’t feel anything. It’s just like I’m messed up & should be able to do or feel something, anything.
Hi Toni, have you heard of ‘fight, flight, or freeze’ mode? When the brain experiences stress, it chooses one of these modes. If we have complex PTSD from trauma, we can constantly be in one, and sounds like you are often in ‘freeze’. You are frozen, unable to invest in relationships, for example. So you say you have tried therapy. The problem is that if we are deeply traumatised then some forms of therapy can just make us feel… worse! It wasn’t recognised until quite recently. And some counsellors, no matter how well meaning, don’t know how to stabilise a person with trauma issues. You first need a therapy that helps stabilise your brain’s response to even thinking about your past, otherwise you’ll constantly be triggered. And then you need to work with a therapist who works with trauma. We have an article here on therapies for trauma http://bit.ly/therapyfortrauma. Therapies that help you stabilise include EMDR, BWRT, clinical hypnotherapy and CBT, as the article details. Finally, there are some things you can do for yourself. Mindfulness meditation, really committing to a practise, is shown to help. We have an easy guide here http://bit.ly/mindfulnessallabout. And journalling to heal is also great http://bit.ly/journalmentalhealth. Finally, educate yourself on recovering from trauma and c-PTSD. There are many self help books. We’d also recommend learning about the incredible power of self compassion http://bit.ly/selfcompassionHT. But really do try to find support again, as trauma needs it to be overcome, particularly the therapies that help you stabilise that literally work on calming down your brain and mind. Change is possible. Don’t give up. Best, HT.
I have just see a prime example of this in myself. Some damage happened in the property I am currently renting. One was a hob that hadn’t worked for two weeks. I thought I may have broken it and because of shame and fear I did not ring the owner but just used the oven thinking that I would deal with it later and see if it needed an engineer. But the desire to hide was overwhelming and then when the wind broke a aluminium patio door, – so I could not lock it when I leave in three days time. A completely sleepless night fretting and feeling the familiar fear in stomach. I broke down and pleaded and cried on the phone for someone to help with these problems. To no avail as it was a weekend so close to Christmas. I broke down in front of two lovely young people who told me that the houses always have problems and to phone the owner and not take responsibility for something that was not my fault. I phoned the owner as I couldn’t bear to leave her without a cooker for Christmas and an open house. Again I became very upset and she was the loveliest girl in the world. Told me how to work the hob and said she was going to sent so and so to fix the door. She said she had plenty of lovely neighbors who would keep an eye on the place until it was fixed. She also said she was having a family Christmas where her home is. I am exhausted now and so is my daughter and friends who must wonder what the heck happened to me but I suddenly realised it was a terrified child, I think about 7 years old so incomprehensible and afraid of retribution. I realise that during all this time that should have been happy there was a little mite inside me afraid to put a foot wrong but I do’t remember why.
Liz, we totally get all of this. What we want to say here is that it sounds like classic anxiety disorder. We can’t diagnose based on a comment, but with anxiety, our mind goes on addictive loops of worse case scenarios, and, most of all, our body is flooded with fear. You went into total fear. Physical symptoms of anxiety include sleep disruption, upset stomach, muscle tension….when we have anxiety, it’s out of our control. Our brain triggers into fight, flight, or fear, and we are on a cortisol/adrenaline high and our mind goes nuts. Sounds familiar we imagine! We feel it would be a very, very good idea to get some help with all this. The thing about anxiety is that you can get help with it and things can really change. There is a short term therapy called CBT, you don’t even have to talk about your past, it focuses directly on helping you retrain your brain into balanced thinking and teaches you how to stop your thoughts from taking control of your actions (such as hiding, which is a coping mechanism). Research shows it helps anxiety. Other things that can help include clinical hypnotherapy. If there is any chance you have c-PTSD (which we think is also worth looking into as you mention a challenging childhood )which is a long term PTSD like condition created by a difficult childhood that has us living in constant anxiety, then you might want to also look into EMDR (eye movement desensitisation and reprogramming). Hope that doesn’t sound too overwhelming. In summary, anxiety is a condition that is beyond our control, so don’t beat yourself up over this, gather up your courage and seek some support! Best, HT.
I can’t help it. I know where it comes from but when I feel I’m being neglected I just think somethings wrong with me or I did something wrong.
Some of you are extremely judgemental and I accept constructive criticism because I want to fix whatever is wrong with me. I have begged to know what’s wrong with me but everyone says nothing so why do they treat me so badly or leave me?
Y’all really need to learn empathy.
Hi Amanda, it’s interesting how even in this comment you’ve managed to call out for help and support then unanimously almost aggressively lash out/push back. At people, readers, you’ve never even met. Without realising it you might be pushing people away if this comment is anything to go by. We sense a lot of anger. This happens. We aren’t judging, we are suggesting that you need to learn empathy, too, for yourself most of all. The real issue is that you believe there is something wrong with you. You aren’t offering empathy to yourself. Counselling could go a long way to help with all this. We hope you gather up your courage and get some support to gain some clarity on all this. What happens is we get so caught up in our thoughts we assume they are true, unable to see how we are making assumptions and acting in ways that lead us away instead of towards what we want. Our real, loving, kind self gets buried. But all this can change with commitment and hard work. Best, HT.