And in order to be an adult who relates to others easily we need to have had a solid, healthy ’attachment’ from birth to seven years old. This means that we had a parent or primary caregiver we could rely on for safety and unconditional love.
And what if this is not our experience? If nobody took good care of us, if we had a parent who was sometimes loving but sometimes punished us for our needs? If a parent was unwell or an addict, if we suffered abuse and neglect?
We find ourselves an adult with ‘attachment issues’. Our childhood gives us beliefs about love and expectations about relating that we unconsciously continue to use, even when this “attachment style” is faulty.
And one very common type of attachment issue is ‘anxious attachment disorder”, also called “anxious preoccupied”.
It is easier to understand anxious attachment if we first understand what healthy attachment, or ‘secure attachment’, is.
Those who are securely attached find emotional closeness easy, can depend on others and be depended on without feeling anxious, and don’t mind what others think of them. They have good self-esteem and feel fine when away from their partners or friends.
Still not sure? A big sign you have anxious attachment disorder
If you aren’t sure, look to the sort of people you choose to have relationships with.
People with anxious attachment disorder do not naturally gravitate towards those with secure attachment. Instead, they tend to attempt close relationships with those who have an ‘avoidant attachment’ style.
This means you are attracted to those who are emotionally unavailable. They valueindependence, don’t like too much intimacy, and aren’t interested in talking about their emotions, which they often hide or deny. They might not even be sure they want to be a relationship at all.
Why would I have anxious attachment disorder?
Again, it relates back to the sort of care you received as a child.
If you have anxious attachment you would have had an unreliable primary caregiver. They might have been very available and loving one day, but not the next. Perhaps they had their own psychological issues that distracted them. Perhaps you had to ‘earn’ their love, too, by being good, quiet… in other words, suppressing yourself.
So even if on the surface your childhood seemed good, behind doors you were not being offered a home where you always felt safe, or love that you could rely on no matter what you did or said.
Often those with anxious attachment report acodependent relationship with a parent. This can mean a parent treats the child like an adult, or makes it clear to the child that the child is responsible for the parent’s happiness. It might be that your parent was actually ill, or an addict, or unstable, and you took care of him or her.
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